Roaming aimless

Across the fields

I pick up half eaten seeds

From the woods

The berries dropped by the birds

And the feathers left behind 

The flowers from the gardens

Touched by the tender bees

From the spring

I fill the water that caressed the earth

And quenched many souls

Pick up shells

From the endless beaches

Hear the echo of the sea

From the conch shell

I just picked up

The sand under my bare feet

Roots me to the mother

As i lay with countless souls

Under the bare sky

Do i pick up the brightest star too

For you

Yes, i do

And then, put all these in the kaleidoscope 

That i hand over to you

That, i say

Is for you...

The bestest and the wildest and the precious ones

All to bring joy to you

The bees the birds the sea the woods

All will dance to bring the most exquisite performance for you

The sea would roar

The woods would sway

The water will dance

To a rythm only you will know 

For all this, was always meant for you

All this, and some more

Pieces .....

Bark of a tree

A drying yet splendid leaf

The prettiest flower

The bllod red berry

The beads from a broken necklace

A shell sunk deep in the sand

A small pretty button from my childhood sweater....

Is all i have for you....

I hand them and go back again.

searching for more to bring glee to you....

How comforting is it

To hear you snore

Softly 

As you lie by my side

A soul 

Completely surrendered 

To another

In peace and in love

To feel your arms 

Your bare body

And soft murmur of your

Warm breath

By my neck

And to feel those lips 

Even as your eyes are closed

And to caress the beautiful face

That lights up my world

Snuggling closer

I move closer to the chest

That is my armor 

In peace and in love

❤️

From the greatest mysery

Rose the sweetest melody.

 Handing me 

His pair of socks

The only ones he had

In that winter chill

He said

Now, these will keep your feet warm

I said

No, they will keep my soul warm

🥰

How many times

Have i said

Confessed 

I love you?

Do you remember?

Perhaps it sounds 

Dull

Repetitive 

Monotonous 

A monolog too??

And yet,

I cant and have couldnt 

Ever stopped myself from

Speaking in as many words

That I do

It was never a habit

Or compulsion

The words 

Just flowed out from my soul

Echoed from my cells

Each time i would and still 

Look at you

Through the depths and despair

Through love and ecstacy,

That is all the heart screamed out

That I love you

Because I always did

And do

 ...so yeah,

The countless narratives

The joy

The pain

The anger

The ecstacy

The anxiety

The excitement

The apathy

The longingness

Shared a million times

Over and over again

Yet, they share it 

For rhe umpteenth time

And both cling to one another

Experiencing the stories

Like the first time

With a hint of curiosity

The eagerness

The desire to know each other

More

Deeper

Honest

Unreined

Unbridled 

Never tired

Of visiting pages from each other's past

Even as they head to their future 

Together 

intoxicated and drunk

in love

and passion

they rolled over each other

telling sweet nothings and smiling

giggling as they caressed 

the bare skin

intoxicated and drunk

in love

Tujhi se main tujh ki baat karti hun

Kya yeh hai ajeeb

Kyon main unhi purani rahon pe chalti hun

Kya yeh hai ajeeb

Un khamoshiyon me main wahi awaaz sunna chahti hun

Kya yeh hai ajeeb

Reh gai hun wahin purane pichle pannon mein

Kya yeh hai ajeeb!

Pebbles together

The most colourful ones

From the beach

Would make their abode

Colours, they knew

They would borrow from the wild

So vibrant that might put the rainbow to shame

Spirit so alive

The chirps and the hoots of the jungle

Would encopass within

Sweetest spiring to quench their thirst 

The open starry sky would be their roof

Pointing to some galaxy somewhere

Up there

They would 

Greet themselves in another world

Fingers entwined, lips locked

They would join in their love forever 

Besides the sea shore, 

With greens and the mangrooves leading to the wild

In what they call their home

 Afer decades

She heard him mention

To her

That endearing name

Meant just for her 

And how she wished

He calls her back!

 I would love to go berserk with you

Run with you

Hold hands with you

Visit places we have never visited

I want you to take me places you want me to be with you

I want to lie by your side

Do nothing

Just bodies in embrace

I want to feel your hands all over me

And mine over you

Move my fingers over your beautiful face, body and hair

And your lips

And ears

And eyes

Kiss your forehead

Kiss you soft n hard on your lips

Bite 

And let me be

Untamed wild unrestrained

And see you let loose 

No control

No boundaries 

Love lust desire 

So overpowering that i cry

For i feel the warmth 

And glow of longingness

I want to lie on the grass

As you marvel at the tiny grassblades n the insects crawling over them

Let us count stars till we loose count

And dream together

Let us spend countless sleepless nights n days together

So much that even the sleep fairy falls in love with us

And lets us be

Let the sun kiss our feet and caress our love soaked souls

Let us take a long trail in the woods

I bruise, u heal

May be even carry me to a cottage to fix the cuts

Let us swim

In the coldest waterfall

Whose tiny droplets splash across the horizon 

And we marvel at the rainbow

Even as i keep my phobia in check

I would love to be guided by you in the depths

And swim

Let us go on a road trip

A journey not taken before

Through the dust, rain, chill and warmth

Oh yeah...the rain

How can i not ask for a walk and much more in the rain

I would cry out loud and let the rain cover it up for me

As i cling to you and walk barefoot 

Let us warm each other

When it is chilly n the snow settles just in

Let us marvel at the peaks

That form the roof of the earth

Can you hear the whisper of the jungle

Bringing us closer together

And then

I would like to grow young and old in front of you

And breathe in the love you have all the while

Till i turn grey n wrinkled n too weak in my knees to move

But my heart will still beat strong for you

And my eyes will savour every single moment of your presence.

Yes. Just these.

And yeah some food too to keep us going.

Bring me the sexiest meal to feed on

And i will cook some orgasmic khana for you till you can take no more...

Although they say love is enough to feed your soul.

Bas. Thatz all.

Sometime i might drink n smoke with you to just be

But that has to be in isolation...just us

And then your fragrance just enveloping me

So much that I ask you to hold me tight

Just enough to feel your heartbeat 

In tandem we breathe n soak in love

I would love to sit n stare at your eyes

So deep n a world of its own

Make me watch your fav movie

And even as the climax unfolds, i want you to spill all the details

I want to hear you 

Narrate your wackiest childhood, adulthood stories to me

as you share bit by bit with twinkle n awe in your eyes

And your voice filled with so much passion as you share yourself with me

I would like to hear you play guitar....pick up some tunes that touch us n play

And then see you get lost while holding a pen n paper as u sketch me impromptu 

Then suddenly turning towards me and fixing my hair or my poor poor lipstick shade or the dry patch on my skin

And how can i forget cleaning my ears or nose or belly button....sniffing it up to ensure i bathed well

Bathing with you would be a ritual

Not getting up from the bed, another

Oh yes...you are my ritual

Now i realise visiting temples is just an extension of what i do with you

Saluting and seeking blessings for the love Yes, we will fumble

I want us to be still okay

Because we will fix us

Because we have

All i need is us

To breathe

Because ow it will be v difficult

She would shed daily

Those which were fresh until dawn

Would drop off her branches

The dusty road filled with 

What once were hers

Yet she saw 

A young girl

Picking up her flowers

And putting one between her unruly locks

It became a ritual

The bloom

The night

The dawn

The shed

And the girl.

Her flower finding its

Rightful place 

Now she holds on to her flowers

Drops the prettiest one

When the girl walks by

Taking it home

Carefully taking it from her locks

And places it by her pillow

Bring i will 

The prettiest

The rarest

The wildèst 

Of them all from the forest

Pluck i will not though

From their branches

I would pick them

As they would have fallen down

The gentle breeze bringing them to earth

Careful not to trample 

I pick them for a bouquet

For you

Whose essence only you would understand 

Not from the glitzy glass shops

I bring

Yet, they are chosen

Only for you 

Just as you have done

Picking the best blossom 

From the earth for my soul

Her pillow was wet

But the eyes refused to let go

Her heart wailed

And stop she could not

With a hug

He said "it will be okay"

And made her lie down

By his side

His mother cried away

And faded into a silence

Till her eyes shut close

With all the pain inside

As he saw her drift into sleep

And hoping his words to come true

lost in thoughts

she felt a drop

skipped from the hold

it just flowed on her cheeks

dry and withered

it was some old memory 

that flashed

oh, that wnt happen again

all that is lost

and realised she not

that she was all soaked 

clothes ruined by loss

oh, those memories

are all she holds on to!

and continued her walk

let them all leave

all of them

for i cant leave 

i carry a burden

deep-seated in the soul

leave nothing for me

please,

oh nothing!

only memories

and i still live

to die another day!

 

If only disappearing was so easy
She would just vanish
Oh how much she wished
To become just invisible
So that she could scream
In silence
Without being questioned
Without judgement
Without justification
Oh how much she wished
Holding tears wasnt difficult at all
If only she could go invisible
But then she sat on a history
Tainted with yet another
Heart as heavy as hers
Or perhaps more
That left everyone agast
Clueless as to what went wrong, where, when
And that burden she has carried
Pass she not to those
Who hold on to her
In need or otherwise
Or those who cling to her
In hope
Oh cant she break it all
And go invisible
As white as marble
As the clouds
Who let the beight sunlight pierce through
As white as the ocean's foam
Let her crash against the shores
Oh please
Let her be
Leave her to her fate
Tired she is
And carry on she not
Must she?

 Can I take back 

All tha pain

All the hurt

All the misery

That raked havock

In the corridors 

Bright and cheerful

It ought to be

Why then it turned dark inside

And reeked 

Of pain

Of hurt

Of misery

I ought to take it all back

Consuming me inside

Like a giant wave

Scared am I

Of the water

Where I drowned last

Oh please!

Who will take it back 

The pain

The hurt

The misery

My heart is wailing 

Screaming 

The pain, hurt, misery

Swallowing me

Oh please take it away

Calm and still I seek

Will the shelter happen

Not the dark and pale

But bright and lovely

With just the two?!

The dread of the night has won

Casting its gloom on my soul

I now blow the candle

Darkness is all I am left with

Barely holding on 

To the life

I lay still

Hoping to just float away

Into sheer darkness

Staring at the window

Anxious she sits 

Hoping she would get to see him

The clock ticks by

He comes not

For he is by some other windowside

Where the temptaton lay

Why would he reach out

To a star that is fading 

A flower that is withering

A wick that is flickering

A soul that is boring

Oh! The new window

Full of joy

Hope

Temptations 

New aspirations 

Fresh beginnings

New him

New her

Shuts she down

Her eyes

Still by the windowside

Dried teardrops

Marking her tired face

Some on the forearm

Where she lays her head

He will come not

She knows

For somewhere by a new window

A new chapter has begun!

Gloom however it may

As a storm awaits

Shattering the still of the night

Robbing the peace

"Worry not"

Says a voice

"For we are together"

"Gloom however it may

Snatch it will not

The bliss that exists

For many lives to come"

And then it happened

The thunder. The rumble

Shaking the earth to its core 

But could defy not the duo

Who sought refuge 

In arms of one another

"Faith, hope, belief"

They whispered love 

To each other

Anger of the storm

They could hear not

The gusty wind

Just ruffled their hair

Their hearts throbbing

Loud as ever

Beating for each other

Is all that mattered

And then everything turned quiet 

Eerie and cold

Just as the sun peeped

They hadn't realised

They had fallen asleep

In each other's embrace

Even as the storm passed by

You are all that i have

Anchored to you

For this life and more

As deep as the heart of the ocean

Lies my love and longing for you

Time may pass

Tides may change

But it would still be

Like the first cell

That took shape in those depths 

And survived it all

Times may fly

Seasons may change

But it would still be

Like the birdsong

That you hear besides your window 

No matter what, it would still echo

And immerse you in all

In this life and more

And then off he went

Said get off

Before nothing could be seen

Or felt

Just his silhouette in the thick of fog

The boat just drifted away

For new shores

Standing in the marsh

Soaked till heart

She stared at the figure 

Her gaze blank as an parched land

Before all was left

Was silence

The stillness 

The chill

Just her

Bare hands

Even an empty soul

Dejected 

The soul lies

A deep hollow

Dug over time

Never to be filled

On the parched

Cracked land

It will lay

Till blown away

By time

...

And that too will pass

Withered and bare

Wrinkled, it will crcak

From dust to dust

And then blow away

In thin air

A story forgotten

A love that once was

 That was the refuge

A temporary shelter 

For the tired soul to rest

Warm and comfortable enough now,

It moved on...

 After decades it rained

Same as hard as on that day

When our fates got sealed

Together as one

On that crazy windy stormy monsoon evening 

Soaked in those thoughts

I drive through the same stretch

That we walked that day

Wish you were near

Closer