So hollow

 Empty 

Even the soul is tired 

To stand up 

Is it a slumber?

I wonder 

But no, it is the state

The soul wants to be 

In deep, dark corners

Hidden 

From itself and the rest

 It took a lot of courage 

To revisit those paths 

Where he would walk with me 

I cried 

I trembled

I wondered 

Would i be betraying him 

Taking the walks 

Without him???

But then,

I wasnt alone.

Was I?

He was still walking besides me 

Oh! How much my boy 

I miss you!!!!

 Oh! The canvas is so pale 

The brush that painted

Lies frail and broken 

The colours 

All dried and cracked

The world, once her inspiration

Lies barren and parched  

The sky, the earth, the water, the fire 

The elements of awe 

Evoke pain and misery 

Oh! The canvas will remain untouched

It seems 

For colours of passion go hiding

 Just as she was to unwind,

She realised there were cracks

All over her 

That needed repairs 

Oh, how painful!

"What is the purpose?", she asked self

"No one is watching", the world said.

But inside it hurt,

So she patched those cracks,

Herself

And close her eyes

Staring at the clear blue sky

I think of him

And how i wish

The clouds to hover all over

And rain so hard

So that i get to walk with him

Barefoot. Again 

The rain walk....

My doggo knew Me 

My secrets 

And took them with him

As he strolled away 

On his new path...

 Souls.

They came.

Bonded.

Loved.

And left.

I stand alone.

This soul,

All alone.

In pain and loss.

Grieving the souls that she lost.

 Oh my child,

You walked away, alone.

Leaving me, alone 

Helpless.

I stare at the path,

Alone.

You walk now free.

I, still tied to your memories,

I miss you 

So much 

My heart aches 

All i do 

Is to think of you 

Around me 

At all times 

Oh how attached i was to you 

And how alone I stand now

I miss you

Love has taught me one thing:

Love loves you in your most unadulterated form.

life is fun.

life is us.

life is supreme.

because dead dont talk.

or smile.

or feel.

they go beyond LIFE

His eyes
Deep like an ocean
Looked at me
Without a blink
Oh!
How may I
Make myself
Get over the loss
The unbearable pain
That is only mine
I miss him
The sparkle of mine
Gone with his
Where are you
Oh! Where are you
Do you see me cry
Do you see me stare at your sports
Do you see me sniff through you stuff
I search everywhere for you
The pain
Is engulfing me
Cant do without you
Never knew a world
Wothout those eyes
Oh! My child
You left me empty
A heart filled with lot of pain
A soul waiting to see you
Once again
I miss you

Oh my child
My twig in stormy waters
I lost you
How may I be myself again
The rough sea
Eager to swallow me
I cant breathe
Anylonger
Why did you,
Oh! Why did you
Just left
My baby
My child

Standing up
Is never easy
The quicksand
Is all set to devour you
And more you struggle
You end up inside it

All she begged for
Was an indication
That he knew
And desperate
Was she to see him
Again
Looking everywhere
Helplessly
She begged him
To show up
And just then
The pigeon
Born same day
She lost him
Came fluttering
By her side
Just as he would
Converse with her
Silently through
His eyes
The birdie did
Said
I am fine
My love
I am fine

How will i ever get to see you
Walk with me
Tugging me to go along
Oh where would I find you
Please let me know
Give a hint
So that I know
That you knew
How much you are loved
Nothing eases my pain
Oh! Just tell me where to look for you
I need to know that you knew
All along
How much you meant
For life you left me alone
How do i finish this bit now
Tell me
Oh my boy
Tell me you knew all along

She stayed there
Ages after ages
She flowered
And she withered
She let them build nest
And let them plucker
Some of her flowers
Attained greatness with devotees
Rest dried up
On the dusty patch
Yet she danced with glee
When it rained
Embrace those
Drenced in love
Her bark thickened
With age
Yet she couldnt stop
The dance
When the first drop of rain
Would touch her
With renewed vigor
And passion
She would swirl again
To the rain
That was her true companion
Ages after ages

Oh my child
You ran into darkness
How may i find you
My child
Do you hear me
My loved one
How much i love you
Come back
My little one
Oh please do
Please do
Let me
Look in your eyes
And tell you
Again how much
I love you
Did you know
How loved you are
My child
Why, oh why did you
Just run away
My little one!

...and they walked
One teardrop
And she said
I died here

She needed a win

He gave away his...

How tiny the world becomes
To those left behind
The belongings
Wrapped neat
Thoughts too tight
Heart filled only with love
And nothing
But to cringe
And feel the ache
Sigh!

Did i stop looking for you?
No my dear!
I still cringe thinking of how i lost you
I still struggle to keep me from moaning my loss
The ache
Only you know my child
You, the one
Only you can hear me scream out your name
That, i am okay with
Because i know
My pain is your's too
I miss you
My dear
Oh! How much i do!

I tell myself
My life is over
And then
Just at that moment
I see him
Staring into my eyes
With his pierced looks
He tells me
I know
You do.
So do i.
And a tear trickles...

He walked besides me
Always
Either a littlr ahead
At times
Too busy sniffing
On other, wagging tail
At others his kind
Ay times
We would play
Hide and seek
Always
I would hide
And he would seek
And then
Suddenly
He hid
Walked on to the other side
For me to seek
From there
Tells me now
This is my turn
My lady
Come fetch me
If you may
This is the other sidemy dear,
Let me walk you ahead

I stand still
Stare into nothingness
And i see your eyes
Twinkling as ever
Staring at me
Withiut a blink
The look of love
Longingness
You belong here
My bud
Within me
Near me
You will be inside me
Forever
You eyes will
Always follow me
I know
I will keep it that way
I want it that way
I need it to br like that
Oh my boy
I miss you
So very much

Oh! My child is gone..
Leaving me alone
And broken
My child is gone
Such enptiness
Hollowness
Darkness
Oh my child is gone
Did he know he was my companion
For days and for years and for life!!!
Oh now he is gone
Lifeless i stand
As i stare at his lifeless body
His soul cant comfot me
As i smell him
All over the place
His sheets
His water bowl
The rug
The floor he would laze on
My tee that held him close the last time
Oh he is gone
His fur cones over
Now and then
Brushes by my side
Ask to be picked up
Oh he is gone
I can hear him scratching on thr door
I can hear him tip toe behind me
Growl and snarl
Or just stare with those eyes at me
Oh wherr do i seek hin
My friend my son my boy
You are gone
Where will i see those sparkling eyes
Hear the.lovely bark
See the fun tail wagging
See you sneeze funnily
Be so particular about your touch-me-not
Oh my child you left me heart broken
My dear you run free
Without a leash
Run free
Chase cats or birds
Lie on green grass
Eat well
Drink pure
Breathe free
Be loved
Forever

..main din gin ke kya karun
Batao mujhe
Main din gin ke kya karun
Jab jiwan ho arthaheen
Bas suraj ko ugte  hue dekh
Din shuru hota hai
Aur antaheen andhakaar se samapt
Din gin ke karun kya
Jab jiwna ho arthaheen